Sunday, 29 March 2020

god speed

 As you lay there in your bed , and watched us come and go , you must have sometimes wondered , why no one ever  let you know..
Sometimes we would stroke your brow ,  and sometimes we would wonder how , in all our days we would let you go , from that thing you weren't supposed to know...
We would laugh and joke , some even smoked , but deep inside we were hurt and broke , and it really didnt matter if we all felt choacked , as we sat round you and babbled and spoke about nothing important...
When your passing was upon us and we said our goodbyes , you lay there so silent not moving your eyes , we tried to be strong but to no avail , as we were all told to leave , we started to grieve,  that was the first nail...
Your funeral was hard you know , I watched our family come and go, all afraid of stepping on  toes as decisions were made about how it should go.I learnt more on that day about jelousy and hate and to this date I will never relate....
The weeks and months turned into years and since you left us  we're still in tears , our thoughts and fears have never faded ,  just our family ties and selfish ways are still left broken by the truths that will never be spoken...
One saving grace that unites us in peace is the love that we had for you was honest and true just remember dear sister no words are more true , we love you forever yes that much we do...♡


Thursday, 26 March 2020

Corona virus ...

Who could ever have imagined life would be the way it is  now. Trev and I both think we have had the virus early in the year,  I myself was unwell for a while, never ending cold symptoms  fever,coughing and tired. Could hardly climb the stairs. Trevs still at work,  bus driver,  classed as essential. I worry about him,  out there,  all those people coughing and sneezing on the bus. 
      Trev was going to contact his GP today to find out if it is  safe for him to continue to work,  he is on imunosupresants,  for his crones. If there had been a test for people to check if they had already had the virus, we would have some level of immunity.  I have not been able to start working as yet. Not for the lack of trying. I can't move in any direction,  I'm in limbo. Definately sitting my maths level 2 at earliest opportunity. I have some evidence of level 2 already, but,  frustrated as I am  by it I must do it again in order for my sanity. 11 years working in NHS and now they change the entry rules. Not happy. Could not imagine living in a flat right now,  lucky to be able to go out back garden and sit in warm sunshine. Still people fucking around,  who created these dumb bastards. Coming and going as if nothing is wrong. 
Have to say that I'm annoyed by the amount of elderly people I see out and about , for no real reason  other than  boredom.  Who's got all the pasta  , that's what I want to know lol. Cant wait till I can start doing normal again. Stay safe ♥️